..kate hudson and dreams?

I've been feeling ok this week, but I've still been having dreams about people that I thought I was getting over. People I didn't want to think about. It's funny how that happens. I'm trying not to let it bother me.

This is a random dream I had a couple nights ago. I wrote it down. Not very exciting, but this is it. The whole Kate Hudson thing is really kind of funny, and totally unexpected.

"My dream last night, well, it's hard to remember most of it. I remember the end though. Kate Hudson was in this dream.. and she was amazing. She was my comfort. Random, huh? I think it wasn't really THE Kate Hudson in the dream though. Anyway, I think she and I and some other people worked at this shop/store, like an antique shop. There was a lot of wood in it. It had this golden beautiful woodsy feel. Very yellow I guess. Dimly lit, yellow light. I don't remember many other colors (at ALL) aside from brown and gold and yellow. And Kate with her bright golden hair and an off-white long-sleeve shirt on. So she very much blended in there, even though she stood out. There was a counter which had other objects on display--one of those long counters which people like us probably stood behind to talk to customers. So there was this other girl there, too, who had upset me. I cannot remember for the life of me what she looked like. In fact, I keep getting confused because I feel like she might have looked like Kate Hudson, too. I had been with this other girl and Kate, and this other girl and I had some weird sort of tension that wasn't really being addressed until I started to say that I couldn't really handle the situation anymore and that I had to walk away from it--or something along those lines. And this girl was not happy about that. And she got more angry at me, and I started to get really uncomfortable, so eventually I somehow said I had to go and I just walked away from the conversation. Kate had been there the whole time, but she had only looked at me in a terribly concerned way. It was like she was an angel that the other girl and anyone else didn't really see. I mean, she didn't defend me, but she didn't need to, either. And once I had walked away from it, she was with me. We started talking a little and I started picking up boxes that I needed to move or something. And she suddenly had this terribly sweet expression, and a concerned smile, and she said I didn't need to try doing work since I was obviously upset. We sat on the floor with the box after she helped me and I started going through the box because I guess that's what I had to do. She helped me with that work too, which isn't really important. Because at the same time, she talked to me. She was basically trying to tell me not to worry. I remember telling her, "It's just embarrassing, because I could tell that I felt like crying, and I knew I just had to get away and I would be ok. I just didn't want to cry like that, and I felt like a little kid again." Stuff like that. Then I actually did cry. A few tears in front of her. I dried my eyes quickly, because I could tell it would pass soon. Once I started crying though, I think Kate took (whatever I was holding, a statue?) out of my hand, because she didn't want me pushing myself and trying to get work done. She thought I was trying to hard. I don't remember what else we talked about except when she said that the other girl (who had made me sad) didn't have work tomorrow, but she (Kate) did. So she said, basically, "isn't it cool? that me and you both have work together tomorrow, and we don't have to worry about those other guys being here?" She was so sweet. I remember feeling weird, because it feels like when you break down like that in front of someone, that you can't be real friends. For some reason. I was wondering if she really wanted to be my friend or if she just wanted to make sure I was ok, you know? I hate when things are awkward after situations like that. Then I feel like I owe that person. But really.. I think she was the most pure thing ever, in the dream. I don't think she was irritated the least bit by me. She was just so sweet. I guess I always liked Kate Hudson. Weird.."


I cut out the last couple of sentences. I couldn't decide whether or not they were a weird thing for me to post. Wait, what? Anyway.