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It's 5 am again. I'm tired. It's snowing. Yay.

It's funny because I was driving high earlier, listening to music, remembering how that is one of my favorite things to do. Sometimes I think I could do it forever. I always need to have a destination for comfort or something, but I hate when I get to the destination. I drive as slow as I can without it being too suspicious. Every once in a while I can accelerate and it feels good. But just driving stoned and listening to music that I can live inside in, happily, is so great. Of course, it also made me think about how last summer I told someone that, and they said they used to do the same thing in their hometown all the time especially on this one road. And when I thought about this person telling me that, I thought it was so sweet and it also made me sad. But I still wanted to keep driving. I was going home, but I didn't want to get there so when I was almost home I stopped to see if I could visit a friend who lived another 20 minutes away. So at 2am I went there and it was cool for a little because I hadn't seen that friend in a while. Eventually I went home and it was snowing and I still didn't want to ever get to my destination except that I was, and am, pretty tired. So now I'm home. The snow is pretty. I thought of Edward Scissorhands. Is Tim Burton's book a creepy gift for someone you like? I hope not. I think anything is creepy if you give it to the wrong person. Anything can be anything to different people.

How obvious is that? I'm sorry, I'm just very tired. I got more music again today and it won't stop because I just keep getting more, paying or not, and I hope I listen to everything. It's so exciting. I want to watch more movies too. I want to go to places of boldness and sometimes high contrast. And vivid-ness. Textured. I want to read more Calvin and Hobbes and revert back to childhood and do those crazy things I never did like pretend I'm in a spaceship and the teacher is an alien and be over dramatic because who really cares? Haha let's just fuck around with everyone. In the good way. That's what I wanna do. I like it when someone pops into my world and shows me something I've never seen or that I just forgot about. It'd be cool to do that myself, too.